Salam, and a very good afternoon guys and girls. How are you? Have you done your assignments? How's 'puasa' this time around? I am okay, well, just okay. I'm kind of feeling mad right now, but I'm trying to control it so that I don't blow unnecessary things out.
To be honest, I think I have to be true to this particular type of group; the people who want to share everything with you, who use all your stuffs so that they didn't have to use theirs. Frankly speaking, I'm not the type of person who like to borrow people's stuffs unless I need it badly and I will try my best to buy/have it by my own. I don't want to be people's liability so people, better don't be mine.
For me, sharing is okay if there is give, take and give back but what always happens to me is that I am the one who always give to people, so is it fair? I am not playing the role of the victim here but the saddest part is, in our culture, sharing is being regarded as caring. Hello, there is always a boundary to everything, including sharing. I can share stuffs that will not cost me much because I am not that stingy but when you keep coming to me for help, I really can't deal with that.
Sometimes I wonder, what do these people do with their monthly allowance? Why can't they spare some of that money to buy their basic necessities in hostel life? I don't spare my allowance to buy washing detergent or some food and drinks and then you have some of it without having pity on me. Yes I do sometimes ask you to have my food and drinks but there is always a stop/boundary to it and it'll be more polite if you can figure it out by yourself.
I am not from a wealthy family where I get thousands from my parents but still I can provide myself with my own groceries. As the eldest in my family, I tries my best not to ask money from my parents and work all sweat in me just not to overspend even though sometimes I want to buy things for my own but I have to think twice! I did all shopping using my OWN allowance! I don't ask for your money at all am I right?
Sometimes sharing is okay, when my friends really need my help. I am still a human, I know when to help or when to neglect but please don't make it as your habit. Tell me, is it fair that you use your allowance and shop for this and that, dating here and there and have food like you are the king of the world (mostly during the earlier part of the month) while I ended up eating instant noodles at the end of the month?
And today, you again ask for my washing detergent. If you really do your laundry, I am sure that a washing detergent is what you really need so provide yourself with that. Go buy it for your own and wash all the clothes and pants in your wardrobe.
You know what, each and every time you ask to use my stuffs, I feel like shouting out loud so that you know what I felt at that moment! It hurts me because you don't seem to care to do your own shopping! Your two sisters (both are doctors) will help you when you called them saying that you are so 'broke' at that time but I don't even have an elder brother or sister to help. Please, consider my plead. Next time, please buy stuffs for your own!
I know by writing this post, it will hurt some people but please don't get me wrong. I have the freedom of speech and I need to notify some of you about what I am feeling right now. I don't mind if you want to use my stuffs but don't make it as your habit. Let's be fair this time, you use my stuffs and I can use yours. Please don't hide your stuffs as if I am the one asking for your stuffs all these while. Once again, my allowance is not to serve the best for you, but for me to have a comfortable hostel life. Sorry if it hurts you, I really need to get this pinned into your head. Salam, and God bless.
P/S: I write this all not to have people's sympathy but I hope that you can change dude! You are a big boy so please take care of yourself.