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Wednesday, July 25, 2012

Dream of a Dream

:This is very personal:

Everybody has his or her own favourite family member; like the mother who prioritizes her only son with an endless cash or the father who calls his favourite daughter everyday even when she has a family of her own. Yes, each one of us practices favouritism but nobody is willing to admit it because denial is the kind of game that we play every other day.

Think about it very deeply; who is the first person you call whenever you miss your home the most? Who has that shoulder for you to cry on and to tell every little stories of your own? Yes, that particular person who crosses your mind right now is the person of your favourite. As for myself, my favourite person in my family is no longer living but I believe that she is taking care of me from above the clouds.

This is my late grandmother, Che Mah Binti Awang who passed away two years ago on the 7th day of Ramadhan; I had no chance to talk and visit her at the hospital because I was in college and up until now I am still hating myself for that. She was my safety blanket at night when I was small, the shoulder that I could cry on and the person who is never tired of my over-sensitivity. Yes, we were very close that I knew my mother did not quite like it since I put on importance on my grandmother. I thought that my grandmother would live with me forever but death really do us a part. 

Two years pass by and I am still pouring my emotions to my grandmother in my prayers because I know that she would always listen. Sometimes when I really need her so bad, she would come at night in all sorts of beautiful dreams with her comforting smile and the face that I wish to stay forever. Our conversation would always feel so real, her rough hands but an honest touch and those were no ordinary dreams; she is happy up there and is willing to stay inside my mind until I am ready to let go.

 But she rarely comes into my mind these days; I have not dreamt of her for few months and I could no longer see my favourite face. Maybe she thought that I should face the music like a grown up kid already, so she has moved on with her life and observing only from afar? Every night in my dream I wish that I would dream another dream with her, just a chance to say "I'm sorry, I love you Tok, I will brave up with my life and I hope to see you soon", just that.
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Dreaming about a person who is no longer living is actually a message to the dreamer that he or she has an unresolved conflict or desire to that particular person being dreamed about. Like myself, I have this guilt in me for not being able to be by my grandmother's side on her last day on earth so the emotion is being carried into my sleep. This dream will continue until the dreamer is ready to let go of the guilt or any other feelings bothering him/her at night. 

Sometimes a dream could be a message about what a person wants to achieve but it is so hard to accomplish that it stays as a dream, and this is actually based on my reading. I had one dreamt of becoming a Parliament Member of my home town, which is actually telling me that I really want to be a leader but I am too afraid to stand up for it. Now tell me in less than 100 words about the weirdest dream you have had and your own interpretation of that dream? You could always check with the "tafsiran mimpi" on Google or any other reliable sources okay.

20 comments:

apple damein said...

we do have that person in our life...and it sometimes/mere always happens with regret...

anif abdullah| AA said...

tetiba teringat my grandmother kat kg plak..
hmm,btw aura nasihat orang yg makan garam dulu dari kita ni akan kekal di minda kita even dh lama she/he been gone..

AntaraSenyap said...

semoga tempat dia indah di sana. aku doakan.

AntaraSenyap said...

aku baru fikir nak add kau kt fb. asal aku tekan link tak ada acc yang keluar ?

NARUMI ISOZAKI said...
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Rizal Sadiman said...

I love this entry very much.
I feel sorry for u A.

I know that she is looking after u from above..believe me :)

My weirdest dream? Im a popular actor who wins oscar and all haha

Nick Nashram said...

Setiap yang hidup pasti akan merasai mati. Doa banyak-banyak untuk sedekah pada roh nenek :)

Azham Vsvc said...

Apple: Hurm...I know right? Hey, I remembered that night when my grandmother passed away...you guys were there and you sent a message on my FB inbox hehe...thanks for the kind words.

AA: hehe....kalau masih ada nenek, seronoklah....saya dah tak ada nenek kesayangan huhuhu...

AntaraSenyap: Amin insyaallah, terima kaseh keranan mendoakan. Eh, xde link FB eyh? cuba try skali lg....

Azham Vsvc said...

Narumi: hehe....kami pon tak suka mimpi buruk....tambah2 mimpi yang sedih huhuhu.....tapi betul tau, mimpi kita tu sebenarnya satu petunjuk kalau kita kaji betul2...

Rizal: Thanks buddy, you have always been the supportive ones! Amin insyaallah one day you will be the most popular actor with awards hehehee!

Nik: hehe, terima kaseh Nick Nashram...

Mira Adzlia said...

lucky u..sbb ur late grndmother syg kamu...nenek sy x....hohoho...ok..mood sedih..

**sedekah Al-Fatihah byk2 k..Insya-Allah, rohnya akn dicucuri rahmat :)

Suhami Ahmad said...

atok pernah mimpi dalam mimpi...tu paling pelik...bila atok terjaga dari mimpi, sebenarnya atok mimpi.....hihi

atok numpang iklan yo...
moh joint contest 'sapo nak kad rayo' anjuran atok
http://anaknegori.blogspot.com/2012/07/contest-sapo-nak-kad-rayo.html

R.T.W said...

I don't know much about dreams, but when I dreamed, I will feel it was a dejavu when the dreams really came true.

Like when I was a child, I dream to meet a friend of a 'biawak'. I always wonder why I still remember that dream until my entrance in university.

Later when I entered the university, I had a room mate who's block name is biawak! How coincidence was that!

And many sort of dreams that really shock me why do I suddenly remembered it just after an incident happen to me. It will become like a flash back where my heart will suddenly said "Hey, I think I had this in my dream before."

Condolence for you grandma death. The way you dreamed about shows she's waiting to see you later. Try your best as we muslim have our main goal after life - heaven.

Azham Vsvc said...

Mira: Alhamdulillah arwah nenek saya sayang kat saya, cuma sekarang beliau dah tak ada, jadi perasaan tu tak sama huhuhu.....Terima kasih kerana mendoakan yea?

Atok: haha, kena kasi backlink kat saya, pastu bagi komisen hahaha!

Mimpi pelik, kadang-kadang best dan kadang-kadang takut...

Azham Vsvc said...

R.T.W: hehe....sometimes our dreams do come true, and yes people call it dejavu hehe...it happens to me so many times too hehehe...

Wow, you met a friend called Biawak in your dream, and later in life you totally met that friend in reality. That is why I am telling everybody here, that our dream is actually telling us of a message right?

Dejavu, it's confusing but I really like it when it happens hehe...

Thanks for the kinds words, I am sure my late grandma is happy up there ;)

Orked said...

semoga arwah ditempatkan dlm kalangan org2x beriman...cucu tok kena laa kuatkan smgt ye...:)

i have the most weird dream ever, dua mimpi dlm satu mlm. satu bout jodoh...wakakaka..yg ni x nk percaya...mainan syaitan kot...

and mimpi satu lagi is the most shock one , i have dream my neighbour is buying a new car without knowing that, she really bought it...proton preve warna putih...and sebijik betul dlm mimpi...hahaha

and one more thing, just wanna share with u this weird thing that happen to me. I have been wondered a few days bout diana amir since i saw her in TV9 x silap, and i have wondering about the effects that she will have if the old drama she had acted on is keep showing on the tv. even though she already berhijab. mcm ni laa acik fikir...

erm, dia dah bertudung tp mcm mane kalau cerita drama dia berlakon terutamanya 3,2,1 cinta and aku masih dara ditayangkan kat tv. apa kesan kat dia? kesian laa dia nnt sbb dlm cerita tuh dia sgt laa seksi...hbs laa tercalar maruah dia

n guess wut, terus on the next day, ade iklan sal cerita 3,2,1 cinta diayangkan kat tv...and I? OMG...kebetulan lagi... tp seyes kesian kat diana amir...:)

suratan atau kebetulan, Allah je tahu :)

Azham Vsvc said...

Orked: haha, cakap pasal mimpi ni...ramai yg masih tak percaya mimpi tu ada bawa petunjuk...sebab kebenaran tu datang lambat-lambat...kadang2 da lama berdekad baru kita perasan huhuhu....

Pasal Diana Amir...kesian la kt dia sbb drama dan filem2 dia yg lama2 masih menunjukkan diri dia yg lama, tapi nak buat mcm mana tu sisi gelap dia pada satu masa dahulu.

Namun, syukur alhamdulillah dia dah berubah kan? YG tu lagi penting hehehehehehe

Anonymous said...

I can not thank you adequately for the posts on your web site. I know you'd put a lot of time and effort into them and hope you know how much I appreciate it. I hope I'll do exactly the same for someone else at some point.

Orked said...

mimpi baik dtg dr ALLAH, dan jgn lupa sekalikan dgn istikaroh...:)

Azham Vsvc said...

Orked: hehe...betul tu....cari petunjuk melalui solat istikaroh huuhuhhuu

Azham Vsvc said...

Narumi: I don't know how your comment here has been "removed by the author"? Maybe it is my mistake so don't get it wrong yeah...entah macam mana comment Zati boleh hilang huhuhuhu

Anon: Thanks Anon, I hope you are a good anonymous huhuhu ....

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