Short Conversation

:This is fictional: 

-Background Music-

Berhenti Berharap by Sheila on 7

 

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I have been strong for too long; when I started crying this evening I realized that all of the pressure has been lifted off my chest. Thank you Allah for letting me the chance to flood my eyes, ease the pain and to finally cleared my mind off these worldly matters. I am so glad that I am still the human who feels pain, unlike other robots who keep on playing with the beat of your fragile hearts.

I don't know why I cried; was that a result of a continuous pressure from "them" or just a sense of loneliness? Maybe I am lonely with my male friends in a truly different continent and my female friends...they are females. Such a coincidence that this Sheila on 7 song was playing on my playlist and alone on top of the hill, I let it all out; I swear that I really cried.

I asked Allah, "Why me?" and that was a truly short conversation between Him and I. I though that He was not listening since the answers were not clear to me; just pitch black clouds gathering for the feast of the season. Soon after that I felt raindrops on my face and moments later the grounds were soaked wet in the water.

That was the sign that the world was crying too, and I realized that Allah listened to my whimpers. That was the truly vivid indication that I am not alone in this world; I should wipe the tears and live my life once more time. Yes, it was college matters and that was why I flooded my eyes but suddenly I remembered what my lecturer used to say, "Hukum Allah pun orang langgar, inikan pula hukum manusia". Then I took a deep breath and continued running until the sun finally decided to leave the day.

-Glossary-

Fictional         : rekaan

Lifted off        : diangkat/dibebaskan daripada

Chest             : dada

For letting       : kerana memberikan

To flood my eyes  : menangis

Ease              : meringankan

Worldly matters   : masalah dunia

Fragile           : rapuh

Continuous        : berterusan

Pressure          : tekanan

Loneliness        : keseorangan

Continent         : benua

Coincidence       : kebetulan

Playlist          : senarai lagu

Swear             : bersumpah

Conversation      : percakapan

Pitch black       : tersangat hitam

Gathering         : berkumpul

Feast             : keraian

Season            : musim

Raindrops         : titisan hujan

Grounds           : tanah

Soaked wet        : basah lencun

Whimpers          : rengekan

Vivid             : jelas

Indication        : petanda

Wipe the tears    : mengelap air mata