Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Short Conversation

:This is fictional: 

-Background Music-
Berhenti Berharap by Sheila on 7


I have been strong for too long; when I started crying this evening I realized that all of the pressure has been lifted off my chest. Thank you Allah for letting me the chance to flood my eyes, ease the pain and to finally cleared my mind off these worldly matters. I am so glad that I am still the human who feels pain, unlike other robots who keep on playing with the beat of your fragile hearts.

I don't know why I cried; was that a result of a continuous pressure from "them" or just a sense of loneliness? Maybe I am lonely with my male friends in a truly different continent and my female friends...they are females. Such a coincidence that this Sheila on 7 song was playing on my playlist and alone on top of the hill, I let it all out; I swear that I really cried.

I asked Allah, "Why me?" and that was a truly short conversation between Him and I. I though that He was not listening since the answers were not clear to me; just pitch black clouds gathering for the feast of the season. Soon after that I felt raindrops on my face and moments later the grounds were soaked wet in the water.

That was the sign that the world was crying too, and I realized that Allah listened to my whimpers. That was the truly vivid indication that I am not alone in this world; I should wipe the tears and live my life once more time. Yes, it was college matters and that was why I flooded my eyes but suddenly I remembered what my lecturer used to say, "Hukum Allah pun orang langgar, inikan pula hukum manusia". Then I took a deep breath and continued running until the sun finally decided to leave the day.


Fictional         : rekaan
Lifted off        : diangkat/dibebaskan daripada
Chest             : dada
For letting       : kerana memberikan
To flood my eyes  : menangis
Ease              : meringankan
Worldly matters   : masalah dunia
Fragile           : rapuh
Continuous        : berterusan
Pressure          : tekanan
Loneliness        : keseorangan
Continent         : benua
Coincidence       : kebetulan
Playlist          : senarai lagu
Swear             : bersumpah
Conversation      : percakapan
Pitch black       : tersangat hitam
Gathering         : berkumpul
Feast             : keraian
Season            : musim
Raindrops         : titisan hujan
Grounds           : tanah
Soaked wet        : basah lencun
Whimpers          : rengekan
Vivid             : jelas
Indication        : petanda
Wipe the tears    : mengelap air mata


apple damein said...

i breathe in deep and i lied.

Hanie Dew said...

Be strong my friend. itu cuma ujian kecil dalam hidup.ko masih muda dan ujian yg sederhana pun belum ko harungi. ingat la Dia Maha Mendengar dan Maha Penyayang.

aku rasa komen aku skema mcm org tua. haha. tp ikhlas ni azham

Muhammad Saiazuan Norhalik said...

So7, u havent heard their song for a while

Azham Vosovic said...

Apple: you lied...or you laid back?

Hanie: Thanks sis! Muda, tapi susah nak hadapi dugaan ni. Thanks once more time Hanie!

Zuan: huhu, sedap kan lagu2 lama?

Ezad Skytech said...

be strong...semoga kita semua dapat hadapi segala ujian dan dugaan dariNya..

> lama tak dgr lagu tu da..:D

Azham Vosovic said...

Ezad: huhu, thanks atas ingatan tu hehehe

Teenager Housemaid said...


i believe that u r strong..:)
just keep on moving..:)

Azham Vosovic said...

thanks awak!

delarocha said...

if u tired.
take a rest.
but dont stop.

Narumi Isozaki said...

I understand this feeling. It's not all about college matters actually, but it's more on loneliness. I think so coz I feel the same way too... I'm always feel lost n demotivated. huhu. May Allah give us some patience & strength. huhu... ='>

say to easy=) said...

sabar k. be strong :)

dill said...

be strong. Allah is always with u


Azham Vosovic said...

Delarocha: thanks bro...I really need a rest huhuhu

Narumi: hurm u know what I felt right? Because we both are lonely, away from our favorite friends and lost...yeah...lost....

saytoeasy: thanks awak ;)

dill: hehe, thanks ;)

Aziela said...

You'll pass it. Cry is good. It makes you stronger each time. Very wise to cry it out... You feel good after that?

Azham Vosovic said...

Aziela: thanks akak....ni semua sbb perasaan sunyi...rasa mcm xda kawan kat kolej ni huhuhuhu....

yes, I do feel better after I cried huhuhuhu......