If only...

Why I was born in 1991?

Why I was not born in 1990 huh?

I have to blame my parents for this.

Sad, sad, sad.

If only I studied hard when I was in Standard 3 

And get the chance to skip Standard 4 the next year, 

I can apply the B.Ed TESL Overseas Linking Program 

With Canterburry Christchurch University, United Kingdom.

If only my coursemate and I can go to UK too,

If only God listen to me and how I want it so badly.

I want to study overseas too, with scholarship like them.

It is not fair that I have to eat my heart out seeing the pictures they posted.

How I wish I could be richer than now,

I will study overseas by my parent's money.

Cohort 5 Seniors will be coming back this December,

I am sure with lots of story to be told too.

Life as always, is not fair.

It hurts me so much when I saw their photos in the newspapers,

Wishing "Aidilfitri" to lecturers and friends in Malaysia.

They look so happy and fashionably trendy.

*****

I can be one great TESL student too,

Even though I am not going to UK.

I will make one great teacher though, 

And we will see the results in future.

Gosh, I am writing with jealousy,

That is so bad of me!

This is just an expression,

Don't quote me okay?

Dear IPBA seniors in UK, New Zealand and Australia,

Cohort 5, Cohort 1 and Cohort 2,

I will you all the best okay? Take care always.

Please come back to Malaysia after your studies.

Remember me in every steps of you to classes,

Salam, and God bless.

Press Release: Happy Eid'ul Fitri

Salam Guys and Girls. 

I will be leaving Kuala Lumpur tomorrow, 

heading to Penang, 

my hometown. 

I will be offline from Facebook 

and not going to update my Blog 

or anything related to internet for two weeks (is it?). 

I am not going to study for my final exam. 

That's it!

 I need this holiday so badly.

Just want to share that this will never be the same "Raya holiday" anymore.

No more 'ketupat' and rendang from my late Grandmother.

No more telling jokes with her.

No more everything.

The first thing to do on the 1st of Syawal

is to visit her grave.

I miss you Tok.

Hopefully I can have the best holiday ever in Penang! 

So, I am taking this opportunity 

to say sorry for everything I had done to you guys and girls. 

Happy Eid'ul Fitri. 

Sorry physically and mentally 

Take care Guys and Girls. 

Come back in one piece.

Happy Eid'ul Fitri.

Salam.

P/S: I will miss my class mates, Facebook friends, Blog followers and all.

See me when I see you guys and girls okay?

I live my life for myself, not for others

I wonder why people hate me today?

Is there a sign behind my t-shirt telling people to loathe me?

This morning, my lecturer commented on my hairstyle,

The other lecturer said that the ring on my finger 

Does not reflect on a ''teacher's appearance''.

And in the afternoon, my mentor pointed out 

Like I did not delegate works properly.

What a rough day for me, 

And thanks for the tears.

I really appreciate it.

Let me get this pinned into your head...

I have justifications for what I did. 

Some of my classmates said it is flat and ugly

When I do another kind of hairstyle.

But when I did my signature spiky hairdo they said it is punkish.

So should I keep it messy to make you people happy?

And then when our work in a group is not good,

They blamed the others and the leader,

Not to the person who do not want to take part.

Now you see how life is unfair?

What am I supposed to do 

When people hate all the things that I choose?

How should I react if both the choice 

Just going to make them talk?

You tell me, 

Which other path should I take 

To make them happy?

To be straight to you guys and girls,

I never care of what people wear and do

As long as it does not involve me and my money.

So, I am expecting the same from all of you.

But is that so hard to be done?

Please people.

I live my life for myself,

Not for you.