Safe and Sound

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Safe & Sound by Taylor Swift

Life is like a wheel of fortune; one day you own the throne and the next day you have to step down the hierarchy. This is what I am feeling right now on top of this building and I believe that most of my friends are in my worn out shoes too. We were the Year 2 seniors in our previous college, respected but right now we are back to being the freshmen. It is so scary especially to a student like me who has never been to a real hostel setting at all. 

So here am I, dragging this record book around with hopes to collecting merits in order to stay in next semester. I don't know whether I should stay in or not because it is too early to judge; I will wait for the sign from Allah The Almighty. To be positive, I will always keep an open heart to joining the activities my college mates have planned and will give the best of my contribution. 

This is the only chance to experience university lifestyles and I will lose part of it if I rent a room outside. I am so sad, most of my IPG friends are planning to rent a house nearby already and I have not given a deep thought about it yet. Insyaallah...this is my decision so far that I will stay in this college and endure whatever challenges God is giving me. Hopefully, Allah will bless me with a stronger mind and heart to face this stage of my studying life. 

Ya Allah...this is my humble request for you; please keep me safe and sound here away from any distraction and harmful threats. I want this so bad, I want to study here so well and I want to get my degree done. Bless two years of my journey abroad Ya Allah, I beseech for a better mental health and safety from you. I know that I demand for so many things yet I have not proven anything to you right? You are The Most Merciful and I take advantage of that...I am truly sorry Ya Allah.

P/S: This is me consoling myself in this room alone when most of my male friends have left to other place so that they can get away with an activity tomorrow. And I am super mad at them; probably because they have fled or just because they did not include me in their plan? I don't know, I am just so angry!

:Glossary:

Wheel of fortune: roda-roda kehidupan

Throne: takhta

Step down: turun

Hierarchy: tangga/kedudukan
Worn out: haus
Previous college: kolej terdahulu
Respected: dihormati
Freshmen: mahasiswa tahun pertama
Hostel setting: keadaan asrama
Allah the Almighty: Allah yang Maha Kuasa

To joining: untuk mengikuti
Endure: melalui
Distraction: ganguan

Harmful threats: ancaman berbahaya

Bless: rahmatilah
Beseech: memohon
Demand: meminta
Have not proven: masih tidak membuktikan

The Most Merciful: yang Maha Mengasihi

Consoling: menteteramkan
Have fled: telah melarikan diri