Why am I not like your friends?

Why is it so hard for me to be your close friend?

Why can't I ask you out like the other guys?

Why can't we go for a run together 

Or maybe invite me to one of your game?

I don't want to be the guy you come to see

 Only when you need a pair of ears 

Or maybe couched for some movies

Because that is not the kind of friendship I imagine.

This is hard, my expression.

This is mean, I am irrational.