Friday, December 31, 2010

They tell you just to be yourself and then they judge you

Source: According to the URL stated.

Tired of pleasing everyone on earth

 I was the center of critics this morning when "two educated women that I adore so much" were bitching about my behavior. They reminded me to be more "manly" in an advising tone but in front of my friends and some who I am not comfortable with. For me, their intention is for the betterment of myself but I would appreciate it if they did it personally. 

So, I have posted this status in my Facebook and Mr. Alexs Nuk (who had known me since my first day in this campus) have given me support regarding this matter. We think alike for this kind of "gender" discrimination so please get to know us better before you dare to judge.

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Yes, once you get to know us then you will stop bullshitting about my friends and I. It's true and you can ask my classmates here. They have known me forever and they are okay with "this" kind of boy. I am glad that they are not judgmental like other people but I don't know if they are doing it secretly. My advise is to learn to love other people by who they are, not by who they are not. Remember that judging is so typically "high school" and we are not even in US (okay now I am judging).

It's okay, it's alright. I am a big "boy" and I can take care of myself. For your information, my friends and I are not desperate bitches who would do "extra-curricular activities" around campus.

P/S: Alhamdulillah that I am now one of the UPM students! 
Currently doing Bachelor of Education for TESL.

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Random Pictures: Kenduri Tahlil Arwah Tok

Salam guys and girls. Today I would like to share the stories and pictures during the "kenduri tahlil" for my late grandmother. It was held on December 26 and it was quite a big ceremony. My cousin and I both agreed that it looks like someone's wedding and I blame my uncle for that. For me, it should not be that "meriah"/joyful, just enough with a little food and people but it is his money and I have no share at all to complaint.

I am glad that there are still people doing the "gotong-royong" for the "kenduri". Look at these people, they sacrificed their day because they were supposed to go to work that day. Thank you so much for coming.

These aunties here gave their best pose when I asked her to pose for the camera. I don't know the food they were cooking but I am sure that it is the best.

Ever heard of "gulai kawah batang pisang"? It is a common but special cooking here for "kenduri" in Kedah.

This is how it looks like after it has been cooked. It is tasty I tell you!

And guess what? All these men were the one cooking the "gulai". 

My cousin, Nazirul was in-charged of the drinks while I was doing the servings. 

This is the prove why I told you that it looks like someone's wedding. For me, "kenduri tahlil" shouldn't be this grand with canopies and all. 

This is the picture of my beloved grandmother, Allahyarhamah Che Mah Binti Awang that was taken when she went for Hajj in Mecca. May her rest in peace Ya Allah. Give her all your blessings.

"Tok, orang rindu tok sangat-sangat. Masa kenduri hari tu, orang tak rasa macam tok dah tak da pun, sebab macam tok ada lagi kat dapur tu. Kalau rumah tok buat kenduri, toklah yang paling sibuk buat persiapan tapi sekarang rasa lain sangat. Pak Long pun cakap lepas ni kat rumah tu mungkin tak akan ada kenduri lagi sebab dah tak ada orang kat rumah tok. Tok wan pulak Pak Long dengan Abah gilir-gilir jaga, rumah tok  memang dah kosong dan sunyi. Orang tak sampai hati nak balik rumah tok sorang-sorang sebab nanti orang teringat balik masa zaman orang lari balik rumah tok lepas gaduh dengan mak. Walaupun rumah tok dengan rumah orang jauh tapi orang kayuh juga basikal jumpa tok. Lepas tu tok selalu masak pajeri terung kat orang kan? Sekarang ni da tak da siapa-siapa yang nak masak kat orang. 

Tok, orang sedih sebab orang tak sempat jumpa tok sebelum tok meninggal. Lagi sedih bila mak cakap yang tok nak jumpa orang sangat-sangat tapi mak yang tak bagi orang balik. Tok pergi pada hari ketujuh bulan Ramadhan tahun ni, orang akan ingat tarikh tu sampai bila-bila. Bila orang sampai rumah tok tengah malam tu, jenazah tok da terbaring atas katil. Orang bacakan doa kat tok lepas tu orang sambung tidur sebab orang penat. Bila bangun esok tu kakak cakap dia nampak tok dalam mimpi dia. Tok pakai pakaian putih sambil tengok dia tapi tok tak datang tengok orang dalam mimpi orang pun. Mungkin tok marah orang tak balik tengok tok sebab sampai sekarang tok tak jenguk orang. Kakak dengan Iwan selalu teman tok kat hospital dulu masa tok sakit, tapi orang tak da kesempatan lansung nak jumpa tok. Orang minta maaf tok.

Lepas jenazah tok dimandikan, orang nampak muka tok macam tengah tidur. Orang rasa macam nak kejutkan tok ja waktu tu tapi bila orang cium pipi tok, orang tau yang tok tak akan balik lagi sampai bila-bila. Sekarang ni, kalau orang sedih orang da tak boleh telefon tok macam dulu dah. Orang rindu kat tok sangat-sangat tapi nak buat macam mana? Orang cuma boleh doakan supaya tok bahagia di sana.

Tok, baru 4 bulan tok tinggalkan kami semua tapi macam-macam dah jadi. Hubungan abah dengan Pak Long dah tak rapat macam dulu. Masa tok ada dulu tok selalu suruh anak-anak tok tu berbaik-baik sebab depa dua beradik ja dalam dunia ni. Sekarang ni dua-dua tak mau beralah tok. Ada lagi satu benda yang berlaku yang orang rasa sedih sangat bila pikir pasal benda tu. Memang kalau tok ada dalam dunia ni lagi, semua masalah ni tak akan jadi. 

Entahlah, masa tak boleh diundur. Mungkin satu hari nanti orang boleh jumpa tok ataupun hanya tengok dari jauh. Semuanya bergantung pada amalan orang kat atas dunia ni, tak lama lagi". 


Random Pictures: Old House Revisited

The frontal view of Gunung Baling (this picture is not mine)
Yesterday, December 28 2010, my family and I went back to Baling, Kedah because we have to settle something there. Baling has its personal touch on me because I was born there, my parents worked there for almost 20 years and my late grandmother's house is still there. This town has one of the beautiful strains of mountains in Kedah by the way.

This is the back side of Gunung Baling and I do not own this picture.
So I met my old friends there and I told them that my parents will probably move back to Baling after they retire in nine more years. That is certainly a long way to go but I will wait. Then I visited our old house in Taman Mesra after quite a long time. Well, I still love this house because my parents made it so spacious for the five of us to live in. My mum said that she will renovate the house in future and make another bedroom for my brother so it means that we can have our own room then. 

We lived there from the year 2003 until 2008 before my parents were transferred to Kepala Batas, Penang. Imagine that we started off from nothing until the house can be this comfortable then we have to leave it? Sad to say that I wish I can just bring the house along to Penang.

One more thing, I planted this mango tree when I was in Form 1 in the year 2004. It was very small but managed to live healthily as I did not put any fertilizers for the tree at all. My neighbor said that I have a pair of green hands and I am still blushing until now. That was my first attempt to grow plants and I made it.

You see, now it has produce a fruit but I cannot taste it. We have rented the house to somebody else and I believe that the family is now the rightful caretaker of the tree (because the tree is still mine!). It's okay, I will come back after nine years time and make mango pickles out of the fruit. 

That's all for today. Salam and God bless.

Tuesday, December 28, 2010


Hi guys and girls, followers of LoveHateVosovic. I have just came back from a week of family-related activities with my family members. We went for holidays in Melaka and Negeri Sembilan before we departed to visit my mother's parents in Wakaf Bharu, Kelantan. 

We also had the "kenduri tahlil dan doa selamat" for my late grandmother, Allahyarhamah Che Mah Binti Awang in Baling, Kedah yesterday. I will write about the "kenduri" as soon as the internet is not in his good mood. It was a tiring and hectic journey for me around Malaysia but I enjoyed it so much.

I am also anxious about going back to IPBA in a couple of days because it seems like I have not completed my holidays. I can feel like I have missed/not accomplished something yet and I wonder what. Until then, salam and God bless.

Saturday, December 25, 2010

I should play the role of Juno...

Have you guys and girls watched this movie? Well, I just finished watching the movie because I did not watch it when it was a hit in 2007. I enjoyed watching this movie until the end and I can't stop thinking about pregnancy ever since. Can you imagine being sixteen years old and get yourself pregnant? Wow, that would shock my parents then, haha. 

Well, this movie is about Juno, (Ellen Page) who had her first sex with her best friend, Paulie Bleeker (played by Michael Cera) on a chair. That was their first time having sex and they did not have feelings for each other at all. She discovered that she was pregnant and took three pregnancy tests just to confirm her condition. At first, she decided to abort the baby but changed her mind and want to give it for adoption. 

For me, Juno is a good example teenage girl who got pregnant and want to be responsible for her mistakes. She knew that it was wrong for her to abort the baby because "every child has the right to be born". 

There are lots of incident happening in the movie that we should observe and adopt in our society. Firstly, Juno realized that she had made a terrible mistake in her life and she admit it to her parents (it is so hard to find this kind of teenager nowadays). She stood up for herself, the baby and the guy who made her pregnant as everyone was involved in that matter. 

Secondly, Juno has a very supportive family members and friends. Her father did not kill her after he found out that Juno was expecting a baby and ironically, Juno's stepmother can join the craziness of the family. Her mother was not the stereotypically evil step mother that we can see in most family movies. She accepts the fact that she would be a grandmother and helps to take care of Juno and the baby's health. I almost cried when her mother stood up for her in an incident happening at the clinic -please view this movie yourself and you can feel what I have felt.

 Juno's best friend is also awesome and all her dialogues are meaningful! I would love to copy all that and use it in my college! One of it is "My mum doesn't know that we are sexually active!". That dialogue is funny yet ironic right?


Jason Bateman and Jennifer Garner are also one of the famous faces you can see in the movie so don't forget to rent a DVD of this movie yea? I am sure that all of us will learn better about the emotions of being a young pregnant woman in school and society. This movie can give us solutions to what is currently happening to Malaysian teenagers and I hope that all of us can learn about teenager pregnancy and learn to find solution; not to point fingers to each other.

Salam and God bless!

Why can't you be mine?

She has everything I look for in a girl; great hair, immature sense of humor and most importantly, height. 

She is Taylor Swift, the girl who was born on December 13, 1989. Glad that we both share the same zodiac sign, Sagittarius. 

Her hair, eyes and lips are gorgeous, 
I know it won't last long but can I have someone like her?

taylor swift white horse lyrics

She can play guitar, write songs and act but honestly she can perform better. Her voice in stage performances does not sound like what we hear in her album (most singers are like that by the way) but I know that there's still room for improvement.

No worries Taylor Alison Swift because I am still your biggest fan! I wish that I can see your performance in Singapore next year but ... (you know the answer). Good luck for your career my dear because your latest album, Speak Now rocks! I love the song Back To December, Speak Now, Innocent, Better Than Revenge,  Enchanted, If This Was A Movie and many more... 

Random Pictures: My Old Days

Salam guys and girls. Sorry that I did not keep all of you updated with the latest news of me. I was away for almost a week and now I am ready to blog! Well, I was checking the notifications on my Facebook account this morning and I found this picture. My old friend tagged me this picture and please have a look at it.

Look at the boy in that bright and stripy orange t-shirt.
 That was my size when I was in Standard 6. 

Sekolah Kebangsaan Tunku Putera, 
Baling Kedah.

I went to this school from Standard 1 until I finished Standard 6. That was a long time ago, 1998-2003 right? Hurm, I will search for more pictures of Azham Vosovic in his old days, with more gossips to talk about. See yeah! Take care and God bless.

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Washing machine in my tummy

Source: Google Image

It felt like there was a washing machine 
operating inside my tummy this afternoon;
It kept on rinsing fluid out of my body so I was dehydrated.
I hope that tomorrow will be a much better  day for me,

Opinion and Argument

When you put your opinion too strong in an argument, you tend to hurt somebody who is against yours.

                                                            (Azham Vosovic, 2010)

Melaka & Negeri Sembilan: Day 2

After breakfast, all of us went to the A Famosa Resort Water World because my sister wanted to go there so badly after she finished her SPM examination (I was just following the plan). I did not capture any photo at all because I did not bring my hand phone to the theme park. The photo above was taken by Mr Amran a.k.a my father before we left the place at about 3 P.M. 

Our next destination is Port Dickson, Negeri Sembilan because my parents love this place so much. It is like a must for all of us to come here every year (trust me that it is true). We went here last year, a couple of years before and I don't know what else to say. My parents also have a lot of "connection" here so it is easy for us to get a comfy and affordable accommodation.

We are currently staying here in Selesa Beach Resort after my father's friend suggested this place. I still cannot adjust myself to this place because I am having a terrible diarrhea and nausea at the moment. I presume that it was caused by the food I ate last night and I don't know whether I should go to the clinic or not because I do not want to spoil the fun. After all, this is just the time we have together because we are all going to be busy next year. 

So far, this place is quite cozy and the beach is superb! I can't wait to hit the sand next morning and party (only if my tummy is in his good mood tomorrow). Okay, I got to go but I will keep you readers updated. Take care and God bless.

Source of images: Google and Mr. Amran.

Melaka: Day 1

I do not own this picture okay

Okay, I am now spending quality times with my family members in Melaka (note that we were here last year for family vacation too, but we are staying at a different place). I found out that I like this state very much. I have told my friends that one day I would like to be transferred here and serve for the citizens of Melaka.  

Well, I managed to pass by this school when we were on our way to the place that we are residing in Melaka. This school is the place where teenagers can come and seek for help here once they found out that they are pregnant. They can choose to study here while expecting the baby and then give birth to their child in the facilities they have at the school+house for pregnant teenagers (for more information, please Google). 

This is just an example of female Malaysian teenagers.
The not-so-latest-news I heard was this school is about to be closed because there is no more teenager who come and seek for help. For the record, there were only two students who had actually stayed at the school in the period of their pregnancy (correct me with the fact if I am wrong) and it is a sad news for me.

It is pathetic as there are still cases of baby dumping being reported in the newspapers nowadays. I really hope that if the teenagers found out that they are pregnant, please make use of the facilities they have at Sekolah/Rumah Harapan here and sign up for the program. I hope that Malaysians will not make such noble efforts made by the administration of the school/house just go down the drain. It would be just a waste of money, time and everything.

I know that it is easy to talk; if I were to be pregnant, I would also hesitate to sign up at the school but we can at least educate people about this matter. Remember, baby dumping is a serious issue and should never be taken lightly.

Salam, and God bless.

P/S: Do you guys and girls notice 
that I will become so fascinated
 when it comes to talking about pregnancy? 
Wonder why?

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Somewhere along the bitterness

"Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend

Somewhere along in the bitterness".


Breathe lyrics

Songwriters: Caillat, Colbie; Swift, Taylor Alison;

I see your face in my mind as I drive away

'Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way
People are people and sometimes we change our minds
But it's killing me to see you go after all this time

Mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm

Mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm

Music starts playin' like the end of a sad movie

It's the kinda ending you don't really wanna see
'Cause it's tragedy and it'll only bring you down
Now I don't know what to be without you around

And we know it's never simple, never easy

Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand

And I can't breathe

Without you, but I have to
Without you, but I have to

Never wanted this, never want to see you hurt

Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve
People are people and sometimes it doesn't work out
Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out

And we know it's never simple, never easy

Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand

And I can't breathe

Without you, but I have to
Without you, but I have to

It's two a.m., feelin' like I just lost a friend

Hope you know it's not easy, easy for me
It's two a.m., feelin' like I just lost a friend
Hope you know this ain't easy, easy for me

And we know it's never simple, never easy

Never a clean break, no one here to save me, oh

I can't breathe

Without you, but I have to
Without you, but I have to
Without you, but I have to

I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry

I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry

Currently here: Melaka

Yes, I am currently 
spending my holidays with my family members here,
A Famosa Resort Melaka.

Then my parents brought me to this place.
Hope that I can clear my mind soon.

P/S: Not yet in the mood to talk, sorry.


This blog post is written in a car:

 HATE is a very strong word,
PATHETIC is just sick.
SELFISH is when you are putting yourself first in every detail. 

It ain't easy

"It's two a.m., feelin' like I've just lost a friend
Hope you know this ain't easy, easy for me."

Monday, December 20, 2010

Guys and girls, please help me out!

Mitsubishi ASX


Salam and hi to all guys and girls. 
I am going to need all of you to do one simple favor for me
So I am begging you guys and girls to help me out this time. 

I have joined a contest via Facebook, 
the Mitsubishi ASX-PERIENCE 
(please click this link for further information) http://apps.facebook.com/asx-perience/

The Facebook page of the contest.

To help me out, 
All you need to do is to click the link below
 So that all of you can view my comment:

Look for Azham Vosovic's comment yea?

Then you will see my comment on Scenario 5:

Please click the "Like" button yea?

I should receive a big number of "Likes" 
On my comment in order to win the contest.
Please guys and girls,
 I really want to win this contest for once in my lifetime.

The comment with the most number of "Likes" 
will win the contest 
And will test-drive the all new and swanky Mitsubishi ASX.
Let me win Scenario 5 please? 

Voting period starts on December 20 until December 26, 
So please spend some of your time 
And click the "Like" button next to my comment yea? 

I would appreciate it if you guys and girls 
Can help me out to spread the news
To all Bloggers, Facebookers, and people all around the world 
So that they can "Like" my comment too. 
I really need to win this contest! 

Argh, I'm sweating now!
Oh God please help me this time...
I want to win something this time.