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Saturday, July 31, 2010

Glee: My Favorite Dream Characters!

Quinn Fabray


Miss Emma Pillsbury
Kurt
Rachel
Finn

Glee casts-I love them all!

I would love to play one of these characters in Glee.
It is such a benefit to have my opportunity to sing and act at one time!
Ryan Murphy, please select me for Season Two of Glee!!!

When Will I Join Glee?


Azham Vosovic, 
Don't stop believing,
You know you can sing and act on stage one day
but please stop dreaming!
Reality bites you,
so go back to college
and start by doing your work!
You have a final exam to pass,
and big money to earn!

Cupid please help us...

Notice

APARTMENT 105 A (D)

PLEASE SHUT THE DOOR ONCE YOU OPENED IT
WE NEED OUR PRIVACY!!!

THIS IS THE ROOM OF FAMOUS FACES:

AZHAM VOSOVIC: SINGER+ACTOR AT HEART
SHAFIK STRIKAS: BABY FACE
JEME W. HERNANDEZ (C)
SIDQI ABDULLAH: AL-FADHIL

PLEASE CONTACT OUR MANAGER IF WE ARE NOT IN! 

P/S: I have pasted this notice for a week but sadly there are still people who don't know how to shut the door once they opened it.

I miss you Tok...


Mrs Che Mah Binti Awang,
I love you.
I miss your cookings,
I love your 'ketupat' and your hugs.

I miss to chat with you,
sleepover at your place.
I need you badly now.

Ramadhan is on its way,
I wonder how am I going to endure that month,
And 'raya' after that.
I miss you 'tok'.
Get well soon,
I want to hug you...

I miss you



The Notebook: Movie Review


The movie starts in a nursing home when an elderly man named Duke begins to read a love story from his notebook to a female fellow patient named Allie who is suffering ‘senile dementia’ where her memory is slipping from her more and more every day. Duke reads the story of two lovers who meet in the south at a carnival. Allie was 17 years old city girl and she came from a wealthy family background but Noah was just a country boy. The two spend the whole summer together but Allie is forced to move and go to college although she was willing to give it up for Noah. Noah writes Allie 365 letters but she never gets them so he restores the house him and Allie went to one night with hope that once Allie sees his picture and the house, she will be drawn back to him. Seven years passes and Allie meets and falls in love with a wealthy soldier Lon and is engaged. When seeing Noah's picture in the paper, Allie goes back to Seabrook with intention just to check whether Noah is okay or not but they spent a few days together and she doesn't want to leave. Allie has to choose between her fiancĂ© and Noah and on one day her mother came to the town and she gave her a bundle of letters from Noah which she has been hiding from Allie. Allie was confused and after seeing Lon at the hotel, she chooses to be with Noah and they were married. In present day, the old Allie has now retrieved her memories back and realized that the story Duke was reading was based on their love story and Duke is Noah, her husband but in a short time, she forgets about what had just happened. He goes to Allie's room later that night, and Allie remembers again. The next morning, a nurse finds them in bed together, having both died peacefully holding each other's hands.

The movie depicts the theme of love between an elderly couple and how the husband is willing to take care of the wife even though the process of getting her memories back is difficult. It is so hard to find a husband like Noah nowadays who still stay and be with her senile wife and this shows how strong their love bond is. This also shows that Allie has actually chosen the best man to be with her and share their love together and metaphorically they died together after Allie remembers all her memories.

In the movie, Allie’s fiancĂ© is portrayed as a wealthy soldier Lon Hammond Jr. but in the novel, Lon is actually a handsome, sophisticated and charming lawyer from old Southern money. The purpose of the filmmaker to do this was maybe to compare Noah Calhoun’s ordinary soldier life to Lon’s successful life. This was done to illustrate why Allie felt more secured when she was with Lon and also the approval of their marriage by Allie’s parents.

The filmmakers have made the best decision when they chose the role players for the movie because each of these actors is pitch-perfect and legendary. Ryan Gosling plays the character of young Noah Calhoun and James Garner as the present day Noah while Rachel McAdams plays the character of young Allie Hamilton and Gena Rowlands plays the characters of the elder Allie. “The Notebook” is a combination of young and veteran casts and all were evenly dispersed throughout. They managed to brings freshness to these characters and make the characters feel interesting and unique and they have shown their best act by having most of the audience broke down in tears at the end of the movie.

“The Notebook” does not exactly take much for the audience to guess how the story is going to develop and end. The movie will play on your emotions and will let you squeeze out a few tears but it is a movie that you can relax and let flow over you. It is also one of the few films out there that tell a complete story as there is a well-defined beginning, middle, and end for the movie. The audiences are not left with questions inside their head once they stepped out from the cinema because everything is well answered in the movie and that is the most interesting idea of the movie.

The plot and all the scenes in the movie move smoothly and it does not take much for the general idea of each scene to be understood. This is very important so that the audiences will get excited to finish the movie. There is also no scene that moves very slowly and this happens to keep the audiences chaired on their seats.

The language used in the movie is simple and concise. Every dialogue is well composed by the script writer and this movie is actually adapted by a novel written by Nicholas Sparks who also wrote remarkable novels such as ‘A Walk to Remember’ and ‘Dear John’. The present day Noah acts as a narrator who reads the notebook and he narrates the flow of the movie very well and the audience will be moved away with beautiful and meaningful quotations and lines from the movie.

This is a must-watch movie for love couples out there so do not miss your chance to see this movie and ponder about your own love story. It will entertain you for two hours and maybe after watching the movie, you can spend some time to read the novel.

SOCIAL STUDIES-CRITICAL REVIEW


Select an article from your Social Studies folio and write a critical review in about 500 words.
Your review should include the following:
  • ·         A brief summary of the article.
  • ·         Your opinions on the issue.
  • ·         Your suggestions to resolve the conflict.
  • ·         Conclusion.

The article “Man gets ‘high’ on panties” from The Star, 9th June 2010 edition tells the reader about a medical assistant caught by Terengganu cops for stealing women’s panties around his neighbourhood over the past year. The suspect had fetish for used lingerie and he was also a hardcore drug user. Initially, police officers searched his house for drug but were taken aback when they found hundreds of underwear hidden in a cabinet and the suspect also wears one of the stolen panties.

Based on the article, I believe that the suspect was having a serious sexual problem as he has fetish for used lingerie and what he did was totally wrong. Imagine the fear those women in his residential area feel when there were many cases of stolen panties happening. I am sure that they will have trouble to dry their clothes outside of the house and are afraid to go out alone thinking that there is a sex-maniac living freely around their neighborhood.

The police officers have done their best by detaining the suspect as his presence in public can harm every women and even young girls. He is able to rape women or girls if he cannot resist the temptation. By putting him in jail, women in that area can now breathe freely but still safety precaution should be taken by the authorities concerned.

There are many suggestions that can be done to curb this problem from happening to an individual. Firstly, the person with this kind of habit should find a partner and get married. This is to ensure his sexual need is taken care of by his spouse. Besides, by having a partner he will never feel lonely again as the feeling of loneliness can lead him to steal panties. If he cannot afford to get married, he can always stay with his parents so that they can keep an eye on them.

Secondly, he should stop taking drug as it is harmful to his health. He probably had wasted hundreds of his salary by buying drug. Drug also has its effect by making drug addict hallucinates about unreal things. I believe that drug was also the reason why he stole all those panties because maybe he sees that panties sniffing panties can make him feel better.

Thirdly, a person with this kind of bad habit should find a counsellor to help him solve this problem. He can also go and see sexologist and ask for their opinion about his problem. These people can help him understand himself and his sexual needs better and he can have a better lifestyle if that habit can be treated. He also needs moral support from friends and family members. This kind of person should not be left alone as they will tend to start their bad habit that they had left so family members and friends play a vital role in helping them.

As a conclusion, there are many ways that we as members of public can do to help people with this problem. It is not this person’s fault that he has this problem so let us not judge him. It is our responsibility to help so that everyone in this world can have a better life.
(540 words)

Social Studies: Movie Review (The Kingdom of Heaven)

  • ·         Give a brief introduction of how the conflict started.
  • ·         Name the type of conflict shown in this movie and elaborate on it.
  • ·         Identify three characters and describe the conflict they faced (interpersonal/intrapersonal conflict).

The Kingdom of Heaven

The movie Kingdom of Heaven is mainly talking about Balian (Orlando Bloom) who is a French blacksmith that received an offer by a crusader Lord Godfrey to be a crusader. Lord Godfrey reveals that he is actually Balian’s father and at that time Balian has just lost his whole family because his wife committed suicide as they have lost their child. He finally accepts the offer after a local priest forced him to accept the offer. At that period of time, the Crusades were in collision with the Muslims for over 200 years during the Middle Ages.

The movie is actually about conflicts between religious misunderstandings and different beliefs among the Muslims and the Crusaders. Crusaders are the people involved in the Crusades (wars between the European Christian and the Muslims in Palestine). The conflict started when the Muslims have been receiving negative impressions by the Crusader such as being the competition for the Crusaders. This is due to the stereotype about the Muslims and Islam used to rally the Crusaders. All these led to a major war between this two and caused many lost of lives to the family and the community.

This conflict is the same with what is happening to the world nowadays. In United States of America, there are certain people who stereotype the Muslims in their community. They have been receiving bad treatments by some of the people who are still paranoid with the presence of Muslim and Islam there. There are cases where the Muslims were called as ‘terrorist’ just because they have long beard and wear outfits like the people in Afghanistan and Iraq. This has been a major problem faced by the Muslims after “September 11” incidents that shook the whole world. After US government has decided to fight terrorism, many of their citizens associate Muslims as terrorist based on previous records of bombing cases in Iraq and Afghanistan. This is what we call inter-religion conflict and that was being highlighted in the movie.

In the movie, the main character, Balian faces a serious intrapersonal conflict when his wife died. He has lost his faith because he loves his wife so much and her absence really has made his life turn into darkness. He tried very hard to regain the light if his life although his wife has already been dead. Besides, he also faces interpersonal conflict when he was asked to accept the offer to become the Crusader. He at first rejected the offer but was forced to accept the offer by the priest so this shows that Balian faces conflict within himself.

The second most important character in the movie is Balian’s father, Godfrey of lbein. He faces interpersonal conflict when he tried his best to persuade his son to join the Crusaders. In addition, he also needs to convince Balian that he is his father because he had left his son a long time ago. It was hard because Balian did not want to believe him at first but his effort is worthy after a while. When Godfrey passes his sword to his son as a symbolic that he is going to die, he also passes on that sacred oath: to protect the helpless, safeguard the peace, and work toward harmony between religions and cultures, so that a kingdom of heaven can flourish on earth.

In the movie, the King which is King Baldwin suffers from a skin disease called “leprosy” that causes painful white areas on the skin and can destroy nerves and flesh. To cover his ugly face, he needs to wear a mask because he was scared that someone might get infected and he was also ashamed of his own skin and health condition. At the end of the movie, we can see his horrible face at the day of his funeral and we can feel how the king has a very low self-esteem in his life before.

Thursday, July 29, 2010

Azham Vosovic's Schedule



Vosovic's life is always packed.
His day starts at seven but sometimes is slacked.
Arrive in class at almost eight,
Tries his best not to be late.

He ends his class in the afternoon,
and rush back home to have his nap.
At exactly six his alarm will ring,
He get up, get dressed, armed and is ready,
For him jogging is the best therapy,
and music is his remedy.

When night falls, he will start his duty,
He check his Facebook account, 
sometimes new status update,
and feed his followers with his love and hate.
At ten he will only be at ease to start his homework,
and sometimes heavy load of assignments.
After all tasks are completed, 
He sleeps when there is only five hours to start another new day,
And that is how busy Azham Vosovic's life is,
the price to pay once he become a Vosovic.

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Dear Internet Connection

Label: HATE

Dear internet connection,
I love you so much for helping me to keep in touch with my Facebook friends,
For you who will always be there whenever I feel like watching new music videos,
And you who will keep me company with all gossips and stories from my BlogSpot mates.
Thank you for always making me joyous with "buzzes" from my Yahoo Messenger friends,
And also when it comes to time when I need to Google information for my assignments.
I really love you, I do.

Dear internet connection,
I just hate it when some people misuse you because I know you are hurt.
Too many viruses in your system until you can't take it anymore.
And you yourself need to get your anti-virus system updated,
Poor you internet connection, I'll stand by you.

You know what makes me hate these violators the most?
They downloaded movies without asking your permission,
Too much heavy data, very much pain, your connection is getting slow.
Please don't die, I need you badly.
I need to do my assignment,
I need to keep up with my Facebook friends,
I need to write my blog to keep my followers updated.
I must watch the latest music videos, Beyonce's especially,
I have to chat with my Yahoo Messengers friends,
And the very most important thing to do is,
I must update my anti-virus system!
Damn!

For those who contributed to this slow internet connection,
Can I ask your something?
Did I ever miss to pay the bill?
Hey, I have a fair share.
I need to use the internet.
So much things to do but so slow the connection is.
Please, respect others okay?
Consider us who have better things to do 
Rather than downloading movies for your own pleasure.
Sorry for my harsh words.
Just need to write it this way to make it sense to you!
Good day.

P/S: I know that Wimax connection will be like this at the end of every month, but I cannot accept the fact that you downloaded movies and stuffs from the internet almost everyday. I have also downloaded few songs but that one is minor compared to you. I have checked your laptop while you were not inside your room and was thinking to stop all downloads and turn off your laptop just now but I stopped because I have better things to do because I am G.S, just wait for the time to come that I will smack directly on your head. And I was thinking that after September, I will persuade my father to buy me a broadband! I can violate my own BROADBAND!!! What a long post this time, thanks to this feeling of hate, I have managed to improve my writing skills one more time. Salam and God bless.

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Dear B.W

Yes,
No heart feeling.
I just want you to know the truth.
And I'm actually glad that you can digest it very well.
It shows our maturity as future teachers,
and best friend forever.

I just want to state loud and clear here,
that we have our own right to be with any friend we like,
just make sure that neither one of us feel left out, okay?
Take care B.W.
I love you more than always.
Salam and God bless.

P/S: You know why I call him B.W? 
G.S and B.W never get along, but this is us. 
We hate each other yet we love each other so much.
This is our style of friendship.

Monday, July 26, 2010

UM...MNA...And What More To Come?

I used to love you MNA, and then you broke my heart. I cannot get over you because it has been two times that I saw this one particular person with the same face as yours when I jog around University of Malaya. Yes, you both look alike, probably a long lost twin. I wish that person is you actually, and you are actually a student in UM and we are so close together yet far from each other’s knowledge. Dream on Azham Vosovic, move forward and discard all past memories. I am content with loneliness but thanks for the experience. Hate is a very strong word but I really do not like you.

December 15 2010

What is so special with December 15 2010? Well that will be the date I will turn 19 years old, finally. The most important thing happened last year on my birthday was a call from Madam Yashwanora Yahaya and we chatted for more than 45 minutes. It was a long distance call though; she called from her house in Kota Damansara while I was at Ayer Keroh, Melaka. Another best gift from my parents was they planned a vacation for all of us on my birth date. 

We went all round Malaysia last year starting from my mother's hometown in Kelantan, and made our way through Terengganu and stayed in Cherating, Pahang for one night. That was on the day before my birthday, 14th December. On the day itself, we went to Teluk Kemang, Port Dickson to celebrate the eve of my birthday there on the beach. On the next day, I received texts messages and various calls from friends around Malaysia (well that was during semester break so they were all scattered around the peninsular, IPBArians mostly). Arrived in Melaka in the evening and Madam Yash called so she wished all the best for my future teaching career and so on. Unfortunately, I did not manage to reply all those wishes sent via Facebook because I was on vacation at that period of time. After we went around Melaka, we started off our journey back to the North but my father decided to stay for a night at Bukit Merah Laketown Resort. I went to one of the cyber cafe there and was surprised and touched by all those messages sent to me via Facebook. That was so sweet of you guys and girls. Even though we were all far apart on that date, all of you still remember my birth date. Starting from that day onwards, I vowed to myself that I will wish birthday to everybody who celebrates their birthday.

For this year, 
I think I would like to demand a little. 
There will be plenty of time for preparation so no worries okay? 
Just take your time to prepare me these:

Beyonce and presenting Azham Vosovic!
I want to sing the song "Smash Into You" together with Beyonce on that day, 
live broadcast from Nokia Theater Los Angeles. 
Dream on Azham Vosovic! 
So who can arrange that? 
Hahaha joking.


I just want a cuddly teddy bear which I will name it as Vosovic Jr. for my birthday, 
just like this one, simple right?

I also want all of you to remember me always in your prayers 
and together we succeed in our final semesters' examination! Love yea! 
Salam and God bless.

Dear D,

 

Things are much easily solved

 once we've spelled out the truth. 

Thank you for being honest, 

we should practice this more often. 

Take care, salam and God bless.

Dear B.W

I envy you for spending time with them.
Yes, 
them whom you've only get close since two weeks ago.
The outings, your dinner together and sleepover at his place, 
Even I saw you guys together just now and that hurts...

I am happy that you're happy,
and I realized that I cannot give you something that they have
and I should let you be with them but
I am just scared that I might loose another close friend in IPBA.
I have learnt from past mistakes
 that most of my closest friends have now been a faraway friend.
It's okay, it's all right.
As a friend, I should pray for the best for your new friendship.
Take care B.W.
Salam and God bless.

P/S: My next mission is to find a new close friend.

Sunday, July 25, 2010

Beware of Azham Vosovic!


Beware of Azham Vosovic because he is not himself tonight. He is prone to have human flesh for supper tonight but mind you he is not a werewolf; just having a mood swing due to his inability

 to walk his teddy out for some exercise.

Jar of Hearts-Christina Perri




No I can't take one more step towards you
Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most

I learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are
Running around leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

I learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are
Running around leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are

And it took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I would have missed the first time that we kissed
Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back

And who do you think you are
Running around leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

And who do you think you are
Running around leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are
Who do you think you are
Who do you think you are

P/S: Perfect song for MNA. Don't you dare to come back into my life! 
        Nice song and meaningful lyric though.

What A Memory

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His Blog...His Diary

It is true
that he writes his blog beautifully,
pouring everything unspeakable in written form,
but then he committed suicide.
And that is how beautiful his life is. 

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Another Sad Story

Now I know how it felt to be hated the whole life.
To be cursed for things I did,
And to lick somebody else's spit.
To live everyday hoping that I will die the next day,
To cry again and again when there is no more tears to drop.

Ya Allah, one after another.
A sequel of unhappiness in my life.
A burden being put on my tiny shoulders.
Another sad story is being told.
I don't know how to fake another smile,
I seem to have lost my professional touch.
Drifting away from you...
Ya Allah, I am completely lost.
...

The clock is ticking,
And there is no guarantee.
Hope that I will never lost forever.
Praying that there will be hands approaching,
And they will pull me back to where I should be.
Insyaallah.

To All IPBArians!

Some Lovely Advice-From Mim Toge's Tumblr!

Salam Guys and Girls. If you have some free time, do check out this Tumblr. It belongs to one of my BFF Mim Toge a.k.a Adibah Khalidah. I got this from her Tumblr and with her permission. 

Health:
1. Drink plenty of water.
2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.
3. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.
4. Live with the 3 E’s - Energy, Enthusiasm and Empathy
5. Play more games.
6. Read more books than you did in 2009.
7. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.
8. Sleep for 7 hours.
9. Take a 10-30 minutes walk daily. And while you walk, smile.
Personality:
10. Don’t compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
11. Don’t have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
12. Don’t over do. Keep your limits.
13. Don’t take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
14. Don’t waste your precious energy on gossip.
15. Dream more while you are awake.
16. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
17. Forget issues of the past. Don’t remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
18. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don’t hate others.
19. Make peace with your past so it won’t spoil the present.
20. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
21. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
22. Smile and laugh more.
23. You don’t have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
Society:
24. Call your family often.
25. Each day give something good to others.
26. Forgive everyone for everything.
27. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.
28. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
30. Your job won’t take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.
Life:
31. Do the right thing!
32. Get rid of anything that isn’t useful, beautiful or joyful.
33. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
34. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
35. The best is yet to come.
36. Your Inner most is always happy. So, be happy.

Prayers for My Grandma

Everyone said that she's going to be okay.
But we'll never know what will happen as the clock is ticking.
I just hope that she'll be fine,
I need to see her smile.
I miss my Grandma.
This is tough for me...

I found out when my mother called me.
I know my father don't want me to know,
so that I will not paranoid like this.
But she is my Grandma,
and I have the right to know.

I promise that I won't show my emotions on the outside.
I will fake a smile, an actors laughter.
I don't want my friends to have to carry my sadness.
Only those who read my blog will know,
and I hope they pray for my Grandma's health too.
Salam, and God bless.

P/S: Thank you Raevarthy for your advise yesterday night at Scuds.
I really appreciate it!

When I Look At You-Miley Cyrus


Everybody needs inspiration,
Everbody needs a song.
A beautiful melody,
When the night's so long.
Cause there is no guarantee,
That this life is easy.

Yeah when my world is falling apart.
When there's no light to break up the dark,
That's when I, I, I look at you.
When the waves are flooding the shore,
and I can't find my way home anymore.
That's when I, I, I look at you.

When I look at you,
I see forgiveness,
I see the truth.
You love me for who I am,
Like the stars hold the moon,
Right there where they belong.
and I know im not alone.

Yeah when my world is falling apart,
When there's no light to break up the dark,
That's when I, I, I look at you.
When the waves are flooding the shore,
and I can't find my way home anymore,
That's when I, I, I look at you.

You, appear just like a dream to me.
Just like kaleidoscope colors,
That cover me,
All I need,
Every breath that I breathe,
Don't you know you're beautiful!

Yeah

When the waves are flooding the shore,
and I can't find my way home anymore,
That's when I, I, I look at you.
I look at you, Yeah, Woah.

You, appear just like a dream to me.

What I Ask For From a Friend

When people don't have friends to share stories,
they tend to write it in their blog.
I guess friends are not always there for us.

I am lucky to have readers for my blog.
Well, I am not the expressive type
who will straightly tell people about problems that I am having;
I write it all in my blog,
with hopes that there'll be people reading it
and comfort me when I need it.
That's all what I am asking for,
hope that it's not too much.

P/S: I need a hug from a true friend.

Time to Shine

Why am I selfish?
Is it caused by past torture I experienced in life?
Well, maybe I am too jealous?
I had enough with people on top of my head.
Just realized that I need time to shine, 
all by myself.

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Prayers for Bobby

Bobby's death was the direct result of 
his parents' ignorance and fear of the word 'gay',
He left without a proper goodbye,
But with us to aware that gays have the right to choose their path of life.

                                                                               (Prayers for Bobby)

The Other Side of My Story

I'm slowly sinking in a vast lake of quick sands,
a bottomless pool.
I wish I could crawl under a rock and sleep forever.
No one understands me.
No one in this house can accept my side of the story.
I can feel God's eyes looking down on me with pity.
I can't never let anyone find out I'm not straight.
It would be so humiliating,
my friends would hate me.
And my family,
I've overheard them. 
They've said that they hate gays,
and even God hates gays.
It really scares me when they talk that way 
because now they are talking about me.
I don't want to choose sin,
I don't.
I'm so mad and frustrated God.
I seem to be at the end of the road.
Why do you remain silent?

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30th May

Had fun. Mum was sweet and funny self, like the old mum. For a second it felt like the old days. She smiled at something I said, and I saw her eyes that for a second she forgot what she really thinks of me. The anger never erupts. My timid nature would never allow a full fledge thunderstorm to occur. But it's there, on the horizon. I can feel God's eyes looking down on me with such pity. He can't help me though, because I've chosen sin over righteousness. 

(Prayers for Bobby) 

Half Past Dead

Does it mean that you are not my best friend, 
You don't have to ask about my gloomy face? 
Well, I am half-past dead.

Random Pictures: My Zapin Debut















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